Wednesday, June 22, 2011

COLLEGE educated !

As i start to apply for jobs i quickly wonder what the "H E double hockey sticks" am I doing? I relic my brain around all damn day ..... about this job that's going to be so wonderful that I can pay my bills....

Bills exactly that's what I'm working for, BILLS not for a life changing experience not a place of refuge just bills. I remember my first day of college and feeling like this is what I am suppose to do!!! I am a true philosopher(lover of knowledge) and jobs seem to keep me from my love!


signed a frustrated college grad !!!

Friday, January 1, 2010

Your Bejewels are Blinding me


It has been a while....

and I am full. And when I speak of Full I am not intrinsically eluding to the belly. I am Full. Full of the experiences that life love and friendships offer. I am exhausted by the cliches of the world that I experience. I am fully encased in a tomb of consciousness that holds so heavy on my ever waking thoughts. the ability to look into the city lights at night provide seconds for my only seemingly organic refuge. Fully involved in the inner workings of my spiritual quest entitled LOVE. I have grown into a woman who craves Love immensely that I'm sometimes afraid of. Some are offended by my resistance to the religious sector of spiritual maturity..... My apologies I will offer when love fails me.



I want the courage to express my artistic coward.



I have a false sense of security.. confidence because until I have provided my community with the inter workings of Love I am lost. I am constantly lost.... my mind is crowded. I would never call myself a big dreamer, I'm a realist in most cases, my only relentless and guilty pleasures is that of romantized love. I believe we are all gods and at this time would like to pay homage to a god in my life that helps to encourage me, allows me to vent and be free. I no longer worry about the petty undesirable false treasures of this world because of this very basic and necessary human interaction.



my adventure of the day:



It was like the beginning of a race .... As I floated to consciousness, paced my heart to Black and control my breaths to calm interactions I struggled with my truths and ashamed of poor decisions. I crowded my mind with things that I can mandate to logic. this was all during a brisk mind tormenting experience around Barnes and Nobles today.I became FULL. I called my mentor for the answers and
yes he guided me in a nice direction but the path I'm seeking is still hidden. I have been capitalized in a term minimally understood
EMOTION.



Today is Jan 1, 2010



the pressures of the day begin




things I wanna do in 2010 --- become uniquely defined...sleep on the beach--- try to eat a whole banana ---go to mardi gras--- invent a sound and color called Happy... allow my art to be mine/d

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

week 2

In The second week here in the Western Part of Cape town, Strand. soooo much has happened. Humble in the fact that Africa has a beauty undeserving of the English language, bastardly I try and cultivate the words to express it. Saturday June 27th I visited the Cape of Good Hope, we walked from the top the mountain which overlooks the cape and through a trail that brings you to mouth of the cape, its trail. The air was light, crispy and ironically full of what only could be described as hope. I walked down to the beach front and touched the Indian Ocean, the waves were huge, and they crashed down with such conviction. The water was warm and blue like nothing I've ever experienced. I saw animals in their most "natural" form. Baboons, penguins, and ostrich stand out most. I’ve eaten at the finest restaurants because the strength of the dollar here in South Africa is amazing. The seafood is vivacious and well seasoned. I never know what I order I just hope for the best. I have eaten some of every type of meat, be it springbok or ox. Laurisa and I got our hair braided and the experience was as it is in any black women's beauty shop; a learning experience. The shop is where I received my first interaction with the post apartheid effects. She was a woman of the Congo, here in S. Africa yet had much to offer about the slowly changing views and oppression inflictied… to be con’t when I have more money for the internet cafĂ© LOL

Friday, June 26, 2009

Der

Im in love!!!!

just a spoon full of sugar !











in the lab

I have been in S. Africa for a few days now, I am so cold!!! Ive cried on skype with my mom, I've went to a local bar, had so new food and lived without heat in 50 below weather for a week now !!!! overall I feel good!!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Before!

I leave today !!! I will be in Africa for six weeks, I'm so excited !!!!!

ttyl America.

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